Sorry for the delay on the next post, have had a busy couple weeks then my wifi went down so all drama drama and no fun haha. Anyway watch this space and in the next few days dear readers you will be wondering how the hell I’m still standing strong. But this blog isn’t just a soppy heartache love story it’s about the last 5 years and the things I have gone through. (More dramatic then any tv soap) and I aim to provide the help to anyone who has gone through similar situations.

The reason he changed.

Well I certainly didn’t think I would be writing a post like this today. And I am sat here perfectly calm not saying a word. So there I was taking a snooze on my friends sofa, ‘ding ding ding dong’ I open my eyes and there in sleepy haze she stood in front of me! Hang on wake up wake up this surely isn’t happening well unfortunately it wasn’t a dream and there she’s stood in all her glory, total drunken mess and of course in some attention seeking crisis. I can picture the confused look on your face as your reading this: ‘what the hell is she on about? Who is this woman? Who, what, where, when??’ and don’t worry I will reveal all and as you read my blog you’ll come across this person a few times. And then you will think back to this post and think how could I of been sat here in the same room as cool as a cucumber. Believe me I am questioning myself about this. I am either in shock or just so uninterested in this woman and that I am so over the past her sheer existence is no concern of mine.

Before I start my story……

So before I get carried away, and start talking about gaslighting, narcissists and twin flames and totally confuse my readers, my first few posts will be explaining what these things are and the tell tell warning signs. I wish I knew this before, but then again we go through things and meet people for a reason. It builds our character, and with each event we are taught valuable lessons.

The difference between a twin flame and a false twin

 twin flame relationship is really what most people refer to as their “soulmate” relationship. However, you can have many soulmates in the course of your lifetime, but only one twin flame. Your twin flame is your soul mirror. They share your “core soul frequency.” That means that though your relationship is indeed blissful, it can also be difficult. No relationship brings you into a clearer awareness of yourself than this one.
That’s why there’s also false twin flame relationships. This is what happens when we find someone who we think is our perfect match, but really exists to help us identify and then clear karma and patterning so that we can be ready for the real thing.

15 Differences Between A True Twin Flame Relationship and False Twin Flame Relationship

1. True and false spiritual twins are very similar
When you are with your true spiritual twin, you will realize that even your former partner possessed much of the same characteristics. It has blinded you and prevented you from recognizing the truth.

2. The false spiritual twin mentions the problems of the past. When you purify karma with your soul mate, you will find that the problems that arise are the result of mistakes, nervousness, fears and worries of the past. In the relationship with your true spiritual twin, the problems will be related to what will happen in the future and how to accomplish your goal while you are alive.

3. A false spiritual twin will teach you how to help yourself. The true spiritual twin will teach you how to help others
False twins arise in our lives when we need to become self-conscious and make some kind of change. True twins appear in the time when we need to expand our powers and start to change the lives of people around us.

4. The commitment of the fake twins fades when difficulties begin to arise, while the commitment of the true twins becomes stronger
What mostly separates the false twin flames from the real is their extinguishing. When difficulties and disagreements arise, the true commitment of the twins will be revealed. In the end, the fake twins will leave because it was too difficult for them. The true spiritual twin will be ready to go through anything to stay with you.

5. A false spiritual twin will cause anxiety and nervousness, and the real one will make you feel at home
You will feel a special kind of comfort when you are with your true spiritual twin. You will be the best friends and you will feel at home whenever you are together, no matter where you are.

6. You will not know where the connection with your fake spiritual twin goes, while the link with the right twin will be clear to you despite all the difficulties
The connection with the spiritual twin is almost always stormy and filled with constant breaks and calming. However, breaking up with the false spiritual twin will last longer and be more serious. When you settle down, it will last very briefly and will not end well.

7. Your fake spiritual twin will cause you strong feelings of doubt, while the real twin will bring you security
One of the biggest signs of a fake spiritual twin is constant uncertainty in the relationship. Although it will seem to you that this relationship meets all your criteria, there will always be one voice in your head and a heart that will ask the question: Is this true? It will not happen to the true spiritual twin, at least not to that extent.

8. A false spiritual twin will appear to you at that time of your life when you need to be awakened. The true spiritual twin will appear when you need to get up
It is not the same to wake up and rise. Waking happens when you begin to recognize your inner strength, and the rise is the moment you start using it.

9. A false spiritual twin will always make you wonder if you are destined to be together, while the intentions of the right twin will be clear from the outset
The false spiritual twin will always seem to be somewhat unattainable. You will think that you must constantly strive to maintain the relationship. The connection with the right twin runs naturally, without investing much effort.

10. A false spiritual twin will give you a false hope, and the relationship with the true spiritual twin will be irreplaceable
Your heart will break when you find out that your fake spiritual twin accomplishes the same magical relationship with other people. Your true spiritual twin never had such a close relationship with another person and he would be aware of this fact.

11. A false spiritual twin will be afraid of your success, and the real twin will get inspiration from him
False spiritual twins are very similar to you and most likely this is the main reason you are attracted to. However, when you start to advance, your fake spiritual twin will make you feel guilty about it or you will think that it “loses” something. The true spiritual twin will not only be happy with you but also help you succeed.

12. A false spiritual twin will show you what you need to change to survive, while the real twin will show you what you need to do to succeed
A false spiritual twin will mark the beginning of your awakening. It will reveal your old wounds and habits that hinder your way to success. Your true spiritual twin will not emphasize your pain from the past, but it will help you to understand what you need to do to have a fulfilling life.

13. A false spiritual twin will inspire you to awaken yourself, while a true spiritual twin will make you do it together
The connection with the false spiritual twin will awaken only one of the partners, while the relationship with the true spiritual twin will both partners both at the same time.

14. You will have a shared vision of your lives with your true spiritual twin
Your fake spiritual twin will always have a slightly different vision of life. You do not have to agree on everything, but you should at least make compromises for each other.

15. You will wonder why the connection with the false spiritual twin happens to you. You will be quite sure in the sense of the relationship with your true spiritual twin.
When you are with your fake spiritual twin, you will constantly wonder why you feel so much pain. In the relationship with your true spiritual twin, you will understand that disagreements help you mature and become better partners and better people.

Just a little bit of the subject…

So it’s taken me some time to pluck up the courage to write about this, I don’t want people to feel sorry for me or comfort me. I am writing about this to help people spot the warning signs of being Gaslighted by a narcissist. The experience hasn’t crushed me as a person it hasn’t stopped me trusting men. Everything I have gone through in the last 5 years has completely changed my life and I was able to completely restart my life. So I thought I’d share my blog link on social media and a few of the groups I follow to get some comment with ‘what a load of **** **s’. Is there any need for that? If you don’t want to follow my blog then dont! I am not forcing anyone. Anyway I will not let small minded individuals prevent me from writing this blog. So for those of you who are reading this, I thank you for your time and I hope you enjoy it

The legal bit.

1) Some names and identifying details have been changed to protect the privacy of individuals.

2) I have tried to recreate events, locales and conversations from my memories of them. In order to maintain their anonymity in some instances I have changed the names of individuals and places, I may have changed some identifying characteristics and details such as physical properties, occupations and places of residence

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Thanks for passing by and I hope you’ll stay to the end. I HAVE decided to write a blog about the last 5 years of my life. I CAN HEAR THE QUESTIONS… ‘why would I want to read about a random person’s life?’ ‘what’s so interesting about her life? ‘ Well this isn’t just about me, I am hoping that I am able to help my readers not to make the same mistakes as I did.