Meeting people for a reason : the false twin flame couple

May i first start to apologise for being quiet and not posting for a while. I’ve been trying to think of ways to improve my blog, and in which direction to take it. I was even contemplating on deleting the whole thing and restarting, which, I may still do. but this weekend I witnessed something that I had to share with you guys.

I’ve always been a strong believer in meeting people for a reason. and this week was really that case, to be honest I couldn’t believe I was actually watching a real life action replay of exactly what I had went through, even down to the excuses. It was unbelievable. But how do you tell a person you met 2 days ago that her “twin flame is her false twin” and she is currently being gaslighted by a narcissist? although it’s hard to believe, but you can live without him. At first I thought ‘aw’ look this couple, they are made for each other’ until I started recognising the warning signs :- the over top we are so in love. the we are the perfect match. we are one. every thing I like he likes. You know the real in your face can you tell we love each other COUPLE? The ones who are not convincing us, but they are trying to convince them self’s. Then the attention seeking bagan. One twin always had to be center of attention, whilst the other would be talking about something close and important the other would start pulling stupid faces, or let’s go deeper. let’s get personal. the false twin is that absorbed in him self, that even though his suppose love of his life had just received the news her dad had passed away 3 hrs before. However it was highly important that he had to go and visit his deceased sons grave, and steal the spot light for himself. how egotistical can one be? A few hours passed. They had returned to my flat, and as I was sat getting ready for work, the false twin came in and asked if he could borrow the living room for a couple off hours? so he could surprise her with a takeaway and have a date night? Why I didn’t click on this guy is exactly like him…. Anyway I agreed, and me and George left for a couple hours. As we returned, the girl was in a mess. He’d popped out to get the food, but hadn’t come back. She was completely insane. completely manic, up and down at the window, ringing his friends, I’d even rang the police stations and the hospital. it was at that exact point I started to realise, this girl is going through what I had gone through. And Thats when I started digging a little deeper. Asking questions about the relationship. Especially, when she had mentioned that she felt bad sitting down, and wasn’t looking for him. Because he would then say ‘she didn’t care about him’ . And that’s when I pulled up the 20 warning signs your being gaslight. So I asked her these points :

1. Your intuition says there is something “off” about this person

2. You question your own reality and perception of events i.e. you doubt if things occurred the way you remember them

3. You often second guess your memory of details of past events

4. You constantly second guess yourself i.e. you doubt your decisions and choices

5. You are indecisive because you doubt yourself and you don’t trust your own judgment

6. You invalidate your own emotions. You question if you are too sensitive or jealous because he/she told you that you are overreacting or being overly sensitive

7. You feel confused a lot of the time

8. You lie out of fear. You start lying about things because of the fear of being wrong, criticized or being verbally attacked and condemned as insane, overreacting,

9. You are constantly hypervigilant; you feel stressed & threatened; you fear something bad happening and so you are always on the lookout and on-edge

10. You believe that you are bad person and the cause of the other person’s misery and troubles and he/she also reinforces that by stating that you are the problem and he/she is the victim of your behavior & mental state

11. You apologize a lot even when it’s not your fault.

12. You’ve become weak, unable to stand up or speak up for yourself; you’ve lost your old self-confidence

13. You don’t express your real emotions anymore, other than maybe crying when you can no longer hold them in

14. You feel depressed, isolated, helpless, hopeless, misunderstood

15. You don’t know who you are

16. You feel you are overly demanding; that’s what he/she says about you

17. You are constantly told, “It didn’t happen, it doesn’t matter, it’s your fault, you’re imagining things again, you are overreacting, you are overly sensitive, you are overly demanding, it’s all your fault, you can’t be trusted, you are crazy…”

18. You defend yourself against ridiculous accusations. He/she accuses you of twisted thinking or ulterior intentions & motives i.e. “You want to make me look stupid.”

19. You doubt your own sanity. This is the ultimate goal of the gaslighter. Why? Convincing you that you are insane, mentally ill or diseased gives him/her greater power and control over you.

20. You’ve been in this abusive relationship for so long that is all you know now, or, this is yet another example of the abusive relationships you have experienced. Unknowingly, you have been attracted to these relationships because of a subconscious belief that “this” is love or that “this” is what you deserve. Stop here. Do not blame yourself; ask for help to change your definitions and programs around love and to change what you subconsciously believe you deserve.

Now I’ve just realised, that some of you may of asked your self those questions, about your relationships. And now your panicking, that you are also being gaslighted. PLEASE DON’T Panic. AND PLEASE DON’T AUTOMATICALLY THROW AWAY YOUR Relationship. There is a lot more to it. And the reason for my blog is, to help you through it. And there are many other factors you must consider. But please also remember mental abuse, is just as bad as physical abuse. please don’t suffer in silence. if you have questions. please feel free to contact me. So let’s get back to the girl. I Could see her getting more and more upset, with each statement I read. you could see the pain on her face, as she is realising her fairy tale relationship isn’t the happy ever after she had imagined , but as I said to her, and I will say to you! ‘my followers, this isn’t the end of the world. we have to go through this, to learn to prepare us for our real twin. every person we meet in our lifes is for a reason. if you have only just started following my blog? please read my post about :- We meet people for a reason. Then this will all make a little more sense. And what makes this entry so special? is that at first I thought, I had met this girl, ‘to support her through the loss of her father and to show her that she is stronger than she thinks, and a few other reasons. And the reason why she had come into my life. Was to motivate me, and by motivate me, I mean in life in general. Motivation in day to day life, getting back Into routine, motivating me with my spiritual life practice. And it turns out the main reason was? To get me back, into writing my blog, but not just 1 post over the next few days / weeks but many more entries. you’ll be reading about the events leading up to the reason, I had to write this post . Although the reasons, I had said Id came into her life were those I’d mentioned, but it tuned out the biggest reason was…… to teach her about Twin flames and false twin flames and to open her eyes to her relationship………..


What is a narcissist?

In this blog I’ll be talking about verious topics that I had encountered over the last 5 years so my next few blogs will describing the definition and characteristics of certain behaviours, how to spot the warning signs and how to cope with them, barring in mind I only realised and found out that this was happening to me 5 months after my ex disspearing. But at least with these posts my dear readers will understand what I’ll be writing about instead of being totally confused

Blind Spots When Dating a Narcissist

There are unconscious explanations why you might attracted to a narcissist. Here are some reasons why you might not recognize a narcissist:

  1. Sexual attraction. The greater the physical attraction and sexual intensity, the easier it is to ignore red flags. Individuals who can see auras maintain that sexual energy literally obfuscates mental and emotional energy — why lust is blind.  
  2. Seduction. Narcissists are skilled manipulators . Some can be quite seductive, and not just sexually. They may be adept listeners and communicators or allure you with, flattery, self-disclosure, and vulnerability — just the opposite of what you might expect from a narcissist.
  3. Idealization. Often narcissists are very accomplished, successful, good-looking, powerful, and/or multi-talented. It’s easy to idealize them and want to share in the benefits of their exceptionalism, especially if you feel inferior. People with low self-esteem, such as codependents, are more likely to idealize someone they admire. They may be drawn to typical narcissistic traits that they themselves lack, such as power and boldness. The downside is that idealization makes us ignore contrary information.
  4. Familiarity. If you had a narcissistic parent, being with a narcissist will feel familiar — like family. This attraction happens beneath consciousness and is often referred to as “chemistry.” With personal therapy , this attraction can change so that you easily spot someone who is abusive or self-centered. You might even be repelled instead of attracted to a narcissist.
  5. Codependency. If you have low self esteem or are codependent , you may be unaware of your feelings, which can guide you. You may not feel entitled to respect and having your needs and wants met. Most codependents tend to accommodate and people please other people — a perfect fit for a narcissist. This predisposition is stronger in early dating when you’re trying to make a good impression. Thus, you might overlook or rationalize feelings of discomfort and anxiety that signal trouble. If something does bother you, you won’t speak up about it and try to forget it.

Red Flags When Dating a Narcissist

Below are some red flags to look out for. Having a few traits doesn’t mean that someone is diagnosable with NPD — a narcissistic personality disorder — but they do not bode well for a fulfilling relationship.

1. Self-centeredness

For narcissists, the world revolves around them. Other people are only two-dimensional, meaning that narcissists can’t empathize. They’re in their own reality and see you as an extension of themselves to satisfy their needs and wants. When you talk to your date, is he or she interested in getting to know you, or talk only about themselves? Amazingly, some people do, as if their listener doesn’t exist. This is a tell-tale sign that you will feel invisible in the relationship. If you felt invisible in your family, you might take this for granted. You could possibly feel validated by the attention you give as a good listener. Beware that this pattern will likely continue.

As mentioned above, some narcissists are skilled communicators and will appear fascinated by you, even mirror your interests to make you like them. They may be good at short-term intimacy and make you feel like a king or queen; but eventually, they don’t keep up that act. You’ll discover that their motive is to get what they want; for example, sex, but that they’re not interested in getting to know more about you, your family, problems, or successes.

Be aware of other signs of lack of consideration: walking far ahead of you, making you track them down for a return phone call, arriving late, disregarding your boundaries and needs, or interrupting conversations to take calls from other people.

2. Arrogance.

Narcissists feel superior to other people, and can be rude or abusive when don’t get what they want. This is revealed in their behavior and how they talk about themselves and others. Is your date a fault-finder who criticizes or blames others, the opposite sex, or an ex? One day he or she may be bashing you. When you go out, notice how he or she treats waitresses, car hops, and vendors. Does he or she show other people respect, or act superior to other certain groups, such as minorities, immigrants, or people of less means or education?

Narcissists like to be associated with high-status people and institutions. They think they’re the best and want to surround themselves with the best. This is due to insecurity. Does your date think only his or her school is the best, and require the best car, the best table at the best restaurant, the finest wines, and wear expensive labels, or name drop public figures they know? This may impress you, but will later depress you when you feel ignored or like a prop in their life.

3. Entitlement.

This trait is a give-away. It reveals how narcissists think that they’re the center of the universe. They not only believe they’re special and superior to others, but also that they deserve special treatment and that rules don’t apply to them. Does your date refuse to turn off  his or her cell phone at the movies, expect others to do favors, cut in line, steal things like tableware, airline blankets, or hotel ashtrays, or insist on special treatment from the parking attendant, restaurant maitre d’, or waiter? If you’re a woman, does he expect you to drive to his neighborhood? A relationship with this person will be painfully one-sided, not a two-way street. Narcissists are only interested in getting what they want and making the relationship work for them.

4. Bragging and need for admiration.

Although because narcissists want to believe they’re superior and the best, they’re actually insecure. Hence, they need constant validation, appreciation, and recognition. They seek this by bragging about themselves and their accomplishments. They may even lie or exaggerate. People who brag are trying to convince themselves and you of their greatness.

5. Control and manipulation.

Narcissists put their needs first. They may manipulate you with flattery, belittling, or threats. Their lack empathy may show when planning a date. Time and place might be a difficult negotiation or on their terms, especially if they sense that you’re interested in them. Initially, they may want to please you to win you over, but once they’ve made their “catch,” they want to please themselves. It’s the chase, not the catch that motivates them. Once they’re victorious, they can lose interest, and move on to the next conquest before it gets too emotionally intimate. If not, they’ll be emotionally unavailable and keep you at a distance, because they’re afraid if you get too close, you won’t like what you see.

Some Tips

Listen to what your dates say about themselves and past relationships. Do they take responsibility or blame other people? Pay attention if they admit to serious shortcomings, commitment issues, infidelity, criminality, addiction, or abuse. Equally important, notice if you feel anxious or uncomfortable, pressured, controlled, ignored, or belittled.

Find out about narcissistic relationships, why narcissists are codependent , and why they’re drawn to codependents and vice versa. In recovering from codependency, you’ll build self-esteem , your estimation of your worth will rise, and you’ll expect to be considered, listened to, and treated well. You’ll convey an expectation of respect by maintaining healthy boundaries , by being assertive about your opinions, feelings, needs, and wants, rather than people-pleasing.


As one of my my main topics in this blog is about narcissistic abuse in relationships, I thought this article I found is good news for all who are suffering in those situations male or female domestic abuse happens to any sex. Don’t be afraid to speak out

It is now illegal for your partner to do these 10 things in a relationship (UK Readers

CHANGES to the law have finally made psychological abuse within a relationship illegal.

The offence of coercive control now recognises that domestic abuse can take several forms and is not strictly limited to physical violence.

The changes outlaw a number of things that were not previously covered by existing laws.

Now, laws have now been enforced in England and Wales, with the amendments making the following 10 acts towards a partner illegal.

1. Sharing sexually explicit images of a partner

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CHANGES to the law have finally made psychological abuse within a relationship illegal.

The offence of coercive control now recognises that domestic abuse can take several forms and is not strictly limited to physical violence.

The changes outlaw a number of things that were not previously covered by existing laws.

Now, laws have now been enforced in England and Wales, with the amendments making the following 10 acts towards a partner illegal.

1. Sharing sexually explicit images of a partner

New laws surrounding ‘revenge porn’ make it illegal for someone to share intimate photographs of you with anyone, online or otherwise.

2. Restricting access to finances

Even if they earn more money than you, the law says your partner cannot stop you from accessing cash within the relationship.

3. Putting you down

Persistent name-calling, mocking and other forms of insulting behaviour are now illegal.

4. Stopping a partner from seeing friends or family

Monitoring or blocking of calls and emails, telling you where you can or cannot go, and preventing you from seeing your friends or relatives is now against the law. IF your partner isolates you from the people you love, they could face the wrath of the law.

5. Scaring you

Your partner might not physically assault you, but if they are doing enough to frighten you, they are committing an offence. That could include using their size to intimidate or breaking things around the house.

6. Threatening to reveal private things about you

Repeated threats to reveal personal and private information is now classed as a form of abuse. It could include revealling details about health or sexual orientation.

7. Putting tracking devices on your phone

It is illegal under the new legislation to “monitor a person using online communication tools or spyware”.

8. Being extremely jealous

Persistent accusation of cheating and “extreme jealousy, including possessiveness and ridiculous accusations of cheating” all come under the new legislation.

9. Forcing you to obey their rules

The CPS says if a partner is forced to abide by stringent rules set by a partner, it could mean they are committing a crime.

10. Controlling what you wear

Your partner taking control over any part of your life is highlighted in the new legislation, including restricting who you see and where you go. Controlling what you wear or how you look could also now be grounds for prosecution under the changes.

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If you are in an abusive relationship or if you need advice, contact:

National Domestic Violence Helpline – 0808 2000 247

The Men’s Advice Line, for male domestic abuse survivors – 0808 801 0327

The Mix, free information and support for under 25s in the UK – 0808 808 4994

National LGBT+ Domestic Abuse Helpline – 0800 999 5428

Samaritans (24/7 service) – 116 123


The beginning

So I’ve decided to start right from the beginning. The day I met George. ” Right that’s it, I’m coming over” I say to George over the phone. We’d been talking for weeks and had arranged a few times to meet but something always got in the way. I added George on Facebook in January 2014 as he came up as a friend suggestion, I recognised him from a few years prior through mutual friends. I Wasn’t expecting anything to come from it, I was just bumping up my friendship list. Suddenly I get a message. GEORGE: DO I KNOW YOU? ME: YEAH KINDA WE MET ABOUT 5 YEARS AGO THROUGH FRIENDS. GEORGE : hmmm OK, I thought you were friends with my ex and were trying to get info lol. But I think your genuine. As i said in a previous post, I’m recreating events from my memory so some of the conversation may not be exactly accurate. So back to the story, George and I spoke everyday and night we, d message until one of us fell asleep and the next day apologised for falling asleep. We really connected, we both had just gone through a bad break up and wernt ready for another relationship, we both suffered with mental health problems and were able to support each other through it. It was such an amazing feeling being able to connect to someone like that. George kept suggesting that we should meet and everytime it came to the day something would come up so he would cancel. St Patricks day 2014 I’d been out celebrating the Irish way by having a few alcoholic beverages so yes I will admit I was a bit tipsy, so with duch courage I rang George ” I am coming to yours right now, my friends giving me a lift where shall I get dropped? Don’t worry I’ve got 2 bottles of the finest cider” I giggled down the phone. I think he was in total shock as he agreed and told me where to meet him. “don’t worry Im coming over as a friend, nothing more”. Sat in the passenger seat of my friends car, I started feeling nervous, dammn the booze making me think this was a good idea. As we got nearer I rang George to come out to meet me. I think he thought I was joking about coming over but he agreed and hung up. There I was stood in a car park waiting for a guy I’d only really spoken to online, and everyone knows that behind a pc screen you can be anybody you want I think the term is catfishing. Now my mind Is racing with all these thoughts :- ‘ what if he is some old man? What if he is some weirdo psycho murder. You know all those standard thoughts. And there he was! I sighed with relief as he approached. He is gorgeous…… Oh wow he really is tall 6ft6 to be exact but wow there he stood 6ft6 dark hair the most piercing blue eyes where in 1 he has a gold spec. He gives me a hug to say hi and nervously says come let’s go to mine


Hope everyone had a wonderful new year

Bring on 2020

A spiritual beginning to 2020

One of my favourite motors to live by is ‘don’t be a prisoner to your past, it was a lesson not a life sentence’ and it’s true, you can’t erase the past, you can’t change it so what is the point on bringing it up, it’s the past move on don’t let it prevent you from moving forward.

Every day brings an opportunity to start fresh, to make changes, and new beginnings! However, there are certain dates in the calendar that enhance the perfect moment for “renewal.” Moon cycles, the beginning of spring season, and new years are a few.

There is something extra special about a new year because it marks the closing of a chapter in our lives. This is the time of year when we reflect on the past year and start making resolutions for the next year. We all hope that the year ahead will be different and better. I think if I go over my timeline on Facebook since I signed up that every new year status went something like this ‘ good bye 20** bring on 20** this is going to be my year’ and with each year that passes you find yourself on the 31/12 saying the exact same thing as the last.

“Now, as we close one chapter, the pen is gradually inking up, preparing itself to write the next.” – Mie Hansson

So as the worst year of my life comes to an end, things are looking positive for the year to come as I will be entering 2020 in my new home after 8 months of homelessness.

As I discovered over the last few years I am drawn to spiritualism and all things spiritual, so as the year draws to end I thought it be different to see what kind of spiritual rituals that are out there for the new year so I came across pages and pages of the same kinda thing so here I have written one myself using the same ideas from others enjoy.

These new year rituals start with cleansing and decluttering physical space to remove negativity. As I’ve just moved into my own place I have made sure that everything has its place, throw away things that no longer serve me anymore. A clean and organised space gives peace of mind, allowing energy to flow and creating space to bring new things in.

I then meditate to cleans my heart and mind of any negative emotions that have weighed me down over the last year. If meditation is not your thing try writing out on a piece of paper and burn it. (please make sure you do this in a save environment and if your under the age of 18 please be supervised by an adult)

Finally, there is a planning phase. This step is a compass because it allows one to set objectives to begin on a new journey.

So let’s begin our new year rituals to usher in the new year with a powerful intention. Below my step by step guide @–@

Follow These 3 Steps for a Powerful New Year Ritual:
Here’s how to perform a simple yet powerful new year ritual to welcome in the new year and manifest whatever it is you seek to bring into 2019.

1. Cleanse Your Physical Space
Have fun with this first step. Play your favorite music and open the windows! Get two big garbage bags – one for “things to donate” and another one for “things to throw away.”

Go ahead and deep clean your whole house, and as you clean every room make a “donation pile” and a “garbage pile.”

This process can be challenging but when you let go of things that no longer serve you and simplify, you’ll open space for new and great things to come into your life!

When you are done cleaning your house, light a white candle. This has been used for centuries as a tool for removing negative energy from space and to mark the final phase of the cleansing process.

Need some help with this one? Get Rid of These 25 Things to Declutter Your Life

2. Clear Your Heart and Mind
Get a few minutes in a quiet place, sit down with a piece of paper and pen, take a few breaths, relax, and start writing everything that needs to get OUT. Release any negative feelings of anger, fear, shame, or sadness onto that paper.

Use the end of your paper to forgive yourself and others. Forgiveness will allow you to cleanse your heart from negative emotions. When you are done, flush or burn the paper as a symbolic way to release all of those negative feelings from your heart and mind.

Let That Sh*t Go! Here’s How to Perform a Burning Ceremony to Let Go and Move On

When you let go of things that no longer serve you and simplify, you’ll open space for new and great things to come into your life.

As an optional step, you can also ask Archangel Raphael, the angel of healing, to assist you with cleansing your heart with his green emerald healing light.

Archangels are very powerful spiritual messengers sent to help you deal with all of those challenges in your life that you can’t seem to conquer.

Simply close your eyes, shift your awareness within and say: “Archangel Raphael, please surround me with your beautiful green healing light. Help me release all negative emotions from my heart and assist me to cleanse my aura and energy centers (AKA the chakras). Thank you, thank you, thank you. And so it is.”

3. Set Your Intentions
Mark the beginning of a brand new cycle by setting new intentions for 2019. Write a list of goals (maybe organize them quarterly), and if you wish, you can add an action plan describing how are you going to reach your goals.

Here is a list of the different areas in your life to help you organize your thoughts:

Physical body/Health
Mind/Intellect/Personal development

Welcome 2020 With This Cleansing New Year Ritual!
By cleansing your house, your heart and your mind, and setting your intentions, you are preparing yourself for a great new year.

Finally, conclude your ritual by finding gratitude. Being grateful provides you with the opportunity to be thankful for the lessons you’ve learned over the last year and welcome the new and exciting possibilities that await you in the future.

As Mie Hansson said, “Now, as we close one chapter, the pen is gradually inking up, preparing itself to write the next.”

Happy New Year!


Wishing all my readers a happy new year, say goodbye to 2019 and welcome 2020 with open arms

For me 2019 sucked hence why I’ve started this blog, however after all the heart ache and being homeless, this year has ended with me finally having my own home so for me 2020 is starting on a positive. With love Cece xo

We meet people for a reason


As I mentioned in my previous post I believe you don’t meet people by accident. People come into your life for a reason. Even those who wish never existed

If a relationship doesn’t survive the test of time, it doesn’t mean it still wasn’t meant to be.

Not all encounters with people are supposed to last forever. 

Sometimes the “forever” is not the person – but what we gain from them.

There’s a synchronisity and purpose for each person you meet. Both our positive encounters with people and the negative, challenging encounter we suffer through.

Below are some reasons why we don’t meet people by accident.

6 Reasons Why We Don’t Meet People By Accident.

(People Come Into Your Life For A Reason.)

1. Some people are “bridges.”

These people are not meant to last for the long road ahead. They are an enjoyable pathway to get us to where we need to go.

These people are needed to arrive exactly at the time and place you met them – to transport you to the next level of your life journey.

You meet these people for a reason – even if they are only here for a season.

2. Some people are “roadblocks” and “re-directors.”

These people come into your life to delay you – for both little things and big things.

For example, you might have a conversation with someone – which then delays you and prevents you from getting into a bus accident.

Or you might spend time with someone – and this time spent creates a “time hiccup” which delays you – so you wind up meeting a new, amazing, romantic partner.

You might have heard the expression, “Sometimes rejection is a redirection to something better.” Well, that’s what these people do. They might show up as a rejector – but they are a redirector.

3. Some people are “assignments” and “teachers.”

Often your tormentors double duty as your mentors

They are here to teach you important life lessons – via the process of pain – which helps you to grow who you are.

Their “crisis pain” creates the “crisis fuel” you need – to motivate a necessary change you didn’t want to put in the effort to make.

Plus, some people are just straight-up inspiring teachers – who teach you life lessons in a more loving manner.

4. Some people are “angels”

These people are here to protect you and remind you to stay safe and stay self loving.

They are “guardian angels” of some sort.

Their purpose: Make sure that you do not stray too far from the path you are meant to be on.

In times of need and desperation they help you – when others are not there for you.

5. Some people are “guideposts.”

They represent and symbolize something you want.

Their purpose: Motivate you to keep pursuing what you want – and stay on track.

Their presence helps to make sure you stay awake, energized and committed to moving forward on your soul’s true-to-you journey.

6. Some people are your “tribe.”

These are the ones who are here to stay the long haul.

These people are far and few between – but they are the ones who are loyally there for you during tough times and celebratory times.

They see you clearly and accept you as your “flawesome” self.

Tribe members support you when you are invisible to others.

Tribe members root for you with a pure heart – when others might feel competitive or jealous.


A Change of the way my blog will be written

So whilst reading out my pre glossary to George, he sparked an idea on how I should write my blog whilst telling my story. So instead of writing post after post explaining my entire 5 years almost like a diary we thought it would be much more useful to write about the subjects in my pre glossary whilst adding my events as the examples. That way my blog turns into a self help guide as well as a mini biography. So back to one of my previous post on where shall I begin and the decision to start at the beginning has slightly changed, it will start from the beginning and each event I encountered over the last 5 years. To start with I will be publishing posts about the people who were involved in my life, where I met them, what parts of my life they were involved in, and who they were to me. As I said in the ‘legal bit’ post, I have changed their names to protect their identity even tho some I wish to name and shame. But I won’t because even tho they may of played the negative part in my life there are positives that came with it and without that I would not be able to write this blog. ‘everyone we meet in our lives plays a role, they come with a lesson we need to learn we do not meet people by mistake they enter at the exact time we need them


Pre glossary

I know normally a glossary comes at the end of a book, but as I’ve had some questions about certain things I’m writing about I thought I’d give you guys just a quick list of keywords and subjects that I’ll be writing about, so when you come across it you won’t be confused. I may add more through out my blog.

1. Narcissist : Narcissistic personality disorder — one of several types of personality disorders — is a mental condition in which people have an inflated sense of their own importance, a deep need for excessive attention and admiration, troubled relationships, and a lack of empathy for others.

2. Gaslighting: Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation in which a person seeks to sow seeds of doubt in a targeted individual or in members of a targeted group, making them question their own memory, perception, and sanity.

3. PTSD: Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder caused by very stressful, frightening or distressing events. Someone with PTSD often relives the traumatic event through nightmares and flashbacks, and may experience feelings of isolation, irritability and guilt.

4: Twin Flame :A twin flame is a single soul that was split in two at the beginning of eternity. When the twin souls unite it is for the completion of Oneness and usually when there is a greater mission to get out there to the world. It’s a truly beautiful concept, but one that leaves many people puzzled and confused.

5: False Twin Flame :A false twin flame will be the very beginning of your awakening process. They’ll reveal to you old wounds, patterns and habits that are really holding you back. Your true twin flame will not so much show you your leftover pain as they will help you see what it would take to live a completely aligned and abundant life

6: Empath: Empaths are highly sensitive individuals, who have a keen ability to sense what people around them are thinking and feeling. Psychologists may use the term empath to describe a person that experiences a great deal of empathy, often to the point of taking on the pain of others at their own expense.

7: Angel Numbers: Angel numbers are sequences of numbers that carry divine guidance by referring to specific numerological meanings. In Numerology, the divine science of numbers, it is understood that each number carries with it a specific vibrational meaning that goes beyond a simple quantity.

8: Anxiety Disorder: Anxiety disorders are a group of mental disorders characterized by significant feelings of anxiety and fear. Anxiety is a worry about future events, and fear is a reaction to current events. These feelings may cause physical symptoms, such as a fast heart rate and shakiness

9: Panic disorder: Panic disorder is an anxiety disorder where you regularly have sudden attacks of panic or fear. Everyone experiences feelings of anxiety and panic at certain times. It’s a natural response to stressful or dangerous situations

10: Borderline Personality disorder: Borderline personal disorder is an illness marked by an ongoing pattern of varying moods, self-image, and behavior. These symptoms often result in impulsive actions and problems in relationships with other people

11: Soul mate: “A soulmate is someone that just gets you. It’s a connection of minds, a mutual respect, an unconditional love and a total understanding. It’s about being yourself and knowing, not only that person is following and understanding your thoughts, but is right there with you, side by side. HE or she isn’t necessarily your love interest, they could just be a friend. A SOUL MATE IS OUR SOULS RECOGNISING ANOTHER SOUL FROM A PAST LIFE.

12: Life partner:  A life partner is a companion whom you trust and depend on during your life.

13: C-PTSD: Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) also known as Developmental Trauma Disorder is a psychological injury that results from protracted exposure to prolonged social and/or interpersonal trauma in the context of either captivity or entrapment (a situation lacking a viable escape route for the victim), which results in the lack or loss of control, helplessness, and deformations of identity and sense of self .”

14: Catfishing: Catfishing is a type of deceptive activity where a person creates a sockpuppet social networking presence, or fake identity on a social network account, usually targeting a specific victim for abuse, deception or fraud. Catfishing is often employed for romance scams on dating websites.